I will be fine, too, but today is a day I could have used some sunshine. After muddling through a cloudy morning cloaked in more than my fair share of self-pity, I realized that I was getting in my own way. Sunshine or no sunshine, I had a choice to make. I could keep muddling and mumbling, or I could change my outlook.
Reality check #1: I'm healthy. I have a family who loves me (and vice versa). I love what I'm doing with my life right now.
That wasn't so hard.
Reality check #2: Disappointment is inevitable. So are tired cars and cloudy days.
I gave myself the reality check speech on the way to one of my favorite places, on the way to the job I love. But it wasn't until I came out of Starbucks smiling, then looked down at my cup to see the little hearts one of the baristas had drawn on my cup (how did she know I needed that?) that I realized I had to keep looking. The clouds weren't likely to part on their own any time soon, so I needed to beat down the gloom with a barrage of the little things.
My favorite drink in a cup with my name and little hearts. Beautiful fall leaves that outshine dreariness of the rain. Another car to drive (my daughter's), alleviating my transportation issues. A classical music station discovered amid the saved stations in my temporary mode of transportation. A parking space a reasonable distance from my destination. Students who inspire equal parts joy and exasperation.
Some days, you get sunshine. Other days, you have to hunt it down with a magnifying glass.